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I’ve always been a shy kid.  Don’t know why, maybe it’s because I was afraid of people judging me.  It’s been with me my whole life, but I’ve been trying to get out of it, these past few years especially.  Well, maybe it’s from working too much, or maybe it’s MIT, or maybe it’s because I never get to talk to anyone at work, but I’ve just been absolutely terrible this past month.  Like, slack-jawed, silent.  Like I don’t have a head on my shoulders, completely useless.  It’s so easy to fall back into that groove. Even though I know people are well-meaning, and nice.

Man, gotta stop this foolishness.

A few notes:

• I love classical music, especially when working.  The Four Seasons, especially

• My back has been bothering me lately.  I should get better sitting posture.

• Chickpeas are surprisingly delicious

• It’s weird working, when none of your co-workers knows where you are

• Erging is fun

• I like turtles

Tune in next week, for another exciting installment of “bullet points.”  Yeah!

EDIT: I LOVE THE FOUR SEASONS

Life out here on the West Coast is pretty different.  In a sense, it’s more of a college experience than MIT is, in the sense that I have to do all these things for myself, and that I know few people here.  I don’t have a daily routine, though there are some things that I do everyday.  Get some work done, read some math on the side, check my RSS feeds, work out, and listen to the tune of the week.  It’s pretty simple, actually (I think).  But, you know, this feels a lot like real life, and the rest of my life.  Maybe it’s the cubicle life at Oracle, but it’s a lot lonelier than I like.

I don’t really have too much else to write about, or that I feel like writing about.  Yesterday was pretty rough for me, and I just stayed at Oracle.  Apparently, one of the managers there works real late.  He gets in at around 11, but he stays for a much longer time than anyone else.

What a week,

With the chance that you’ve been given, why are you not driven as hell?

Time to leave a chip on my shoulder.

Once again, I don’t have many coherent thoughts to put down here; rather, I just “felt like posting” just now.

The past few days have been a bit chilly over here.  I don’t get to speak to too many people in person, save for Curtis and Crystal sometimes, and peoples online.  It does get lonely sometimes, but that’s just the lifestyle I’ve brought upon myself.  I don’t eat lunch with other interns, and I miss out on the Friday night movies.  So, there.

Honestly though, it’s not a terrible situation.  There are more than enough songs to keep me company, most all the time.  And, for when there’s absolutely nothing else to do beyond the wild lists that I make for myself, well, there’s always looking out the window, or reading that book, or learning to do that thing that I had wanted to learn at the beginning of summer, but never got around to doing, or making dumplings, or…

well, there’s just so much in this world.  I wonder sometimes, when I’ll get around to the end.

What if…

I spent next summer not doing anything intern-y or research-y, but instead went around looking for people-problems?  I could get a fedora, a trench coat, and put an ad in the newspapers saying in big, bold letters, “Need Help?” or something to that effect, and people could call me up for all sorts of things!  Like… if they needed to reach underneath the couch because their marble rolled there by accident (and their arms too stubby), or if their lasagna wasn’t fully cooked, or if someone wanted to learn to ride a bike.  Or even more exciting things, like if people were filming a movie nearby, and wanted someone to leap across rooftops, or pretend to be a statue in a museum, to catch art thieves.  Kind of like batman, but silly and poorer, and not nearly as competent.

Now, wouldn’t that be the kind of service you’re looking for?  In this terribly rushed, large world, wouldn’t you want someone who could do these things?

Perhaps it’s the combined forces of Dirk Gently and the two characters from I <3 Huckabees that’s doing this, but I love this idea.  And, even though I probably will be doing something academicky next summer, maybe this could be the great beginnings of a short story, or (even better) a comic!

It’s funny how you wait all week for the weekend to come, and it does, and you… have absolutely nothing to do.   So you do the exact same thing that you do during the week, which, in my case, means going into work (and staying there, apparently, even at 9:50 P.M.).  Ah, but it’s not been completely bad.  I just like coming in because of the quiet, and because of the desk (it’s hard to find a comfortable sitting-position at my apartment).  Huzzah, reading!

On the other hand, I started reading a paper about memory, and found that I was not the least bit interested in it.  I’ll try another 20 pages before I give in completely, though; there’s a lot of information in there.  With so much, there’s got to be something I’ll find cool, right?

As history goes, this is the third web-log I’ve owned.  My first was a livejournal that I kept for a few months in Freshman year.  The second was my Xanga, which I had been writing in as recently as about a month ago.  Xanga was actually fine for a while; plenty of people used it, so subscriptions were nice, and it was easy to use.  Recently, though, they’ve changed their interface with all this… what is it, ASP.NET ajax junk, and it’s much more difficult to use.  Either that, or I’m a dinosaur already, and can’t keep up with the kids and their interfaces anymore.  Ah, well, bah to them.

I’m starting this blog on my MIT space in the hopes of a fresh start.  Half of college has gone by already, during which my resolution to keep a journal has gone to waste.  I hope I can salvage something out of my last 2(3?) years and actually write something.  Summertime seems like a good time to start resolutions… right?

Anyhow, a big “hello!” to anyone reading this.  I hope you’re having a great summer!